a rather injuredfish…

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I’ve been vacillating between feeling sorry for myself, and feeling horribly embarrassed about feeling sorry for myself. I’m hoping that blogging about this with have a cathartic effect on me. I also know I’m going to regret publishing pictures where I look like such a Grinch, but I felt like I needed to take them.

Guppy and I were in a bit of a bicycle accident. Thankfully she is a-o.k. Not a scratch. Thank you, child-protective helmet.

Me? Not so much. I am so grateful that it wasn’t worse (we were very lucky according to witnesses) and for all the amazing people who just appeared out of nowhere to help us…especially to reassure Guppy, because I was stretched out on the sidewalk, and though I tried to reassure her and tell her it was going to be ok, I was in some horrible pain. I also went into shock and nearly passed out, so thank you so much amazing recycling guys who stopped your truck and called the ambulance and took care of my bicycle, and to the kind motorist who wrapped me up in the fleece blanket and called my husband, and especially thanks to the super-nice woman who held Guppy’s hand and engaged her in conversation, listening patiently as Guppy told her all about the new shoes she was wearing.

Preliminary x-rays are suggesting my foot/ankle isn’t broken, but the orthopedic surgeon I’m seeing again Monday wants more x-rays to be sure. When I was 14 I blew the 3 major ligaments in my foot after a bad ballet landing…and this is all rather déjà vu-ish. The small handful of you who read my training blog know how excited I’ve been about training for the Paris Marathon in April…and I do mention my SportyFishness here from time to time. I am super-freaking out, in a horrible woe-is-me way, and I’m embarrassed about it. I am 100% dependant on Monsieur Fish (who could frankly use some lessons in cheering up & caring for those he loves, usually the roles are reversed, so maybe it’s a practice issue?) and I loathe not being able to do things myself.

I also had to kiss going to the Salon Marie Claire today good-bye, and I was so very really terribly looking forward to going since I reserved my spot for the workshop I was to take back in July. No goodie bag. No fabric samples. No giveaways. Snif. Snif.

But back to feeling terrible about feeling so sorry for myself. I totally need to get over it – I mean, people freaking loose their feet after accidents! I could have been so much worse off, not to mention the fact that Guppy was fine which is no minor miracle. I know I need to get over myself, but damn this is really, really hard. I usually run upwards of 40 miles/week, ride my bike everywhere, and weight train oh, and practice yoga. My big workout today was going from the couch to the bathroom. My butt hurts from sitting so much for pete’s sake!

Ok, I’ll sit back and wait for the heal effects of “getting it off my chest” to take action. I’ll let you know how that goes.

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29 thoughts on “a rather injuredfish…

  1. You know, Shellyfish, I think you’re perfectly within your rights to feel down about this injury. Yes, you should (and are) be extremely grateful that Guppy wasn’t injured. However, this is a major shake-up in your very active life and sitting on the side-lines can easily weigh on one’s mind. Don’t criticize yourself for feeling blue; it’s completely normal. Hopefully, the orthopedic surgeon will confirm that you are free of fractures and you will be on the road to recovery very soon! Courage!

  2. I am so sorry – but very glad Guppy is OK. You still have loads of time before the marathon so dont panic. A couple of weeks out of training won’t hurt. You will soon get back in the flow. It might even give you an extra spring in your step when you get back into it.

    I think you have a great attitude. I would probably be wallowing in it right now. Take care of yourself and don’T push yourself too hard or you might make it worse.

    Sending a big hug.

  3. Oh, no! Poor you! Thank goodness, as you said, that Guppy was okay and that you weren’t worse–I hope nothing is broken. But of course you’re feeling sorry for yourself right now, which seems perfectly normal to me. It must feel like such a drag right now. And while I wasn’t injured the same way, I know what it feels like to be immobilized and unable to do your “regular” stuff (when my back was out HH had to come home from work at lunchtime to carry me to the bathroom–ugh). Here’s hoping your foot gets better really soon and that you’re up and about again asap. Sending lots of positive energy and good wishes your way!

  4. Oh, no, no, no, no, no! I’m so sorry you got hurt (but glad you’re not as hurt as you could’ve been! And that Guppy escaped unscathed!). And you’re totally allowed to feel as sorry for yourself as you want. Being injured is the pits.

    Keep us updated. I’ll be crossing my fingers for you and hoping for nothing more than a mild sprain or something like that!

  5. Oh no, I’m so sorry to hear this… I really hope you feel better soon. Take it easy for a while, try to relax, and just focus on healing yourself. We can wait over in the blogosphere until you’re 100% again. 🙂

  6. Oh, Shelly, you poor thing. I’m so glad your little Guppy is okay and that you didn’t suffer any worse injuries. You were truly blessed to have so many kind folks come to your aid. Heal quickly!

  7. How awful! It sounds like a scary experience and seems completely understandable that you need to have some freaking out time. And what terrible timing! I’m so glad Guppy was ok and I hope you have a quick recovery.

    Despite the extremely sad look your hair does look great…here’s wishing I was there to give you a big hug.

  8. I’m sad to hear that you were hurt. Glad the guppy is OK amd that your injuries were not more serious.

    Don’t feel guilty–IMHO, you’ll need to work through those feelings for some days. It’s your right. I wish I could bring you some food and good cheer. 🙂

    If it’s any consolation, you look beautiful in your pictures, even with a sad face. I like your Betty Page-style hair.

  9. Oh, you poor thing! I’m so glad your little one is safe and that she wasn’t scared when you were injured. The woman who kept her occupied was a real angel.

    Yes, you deserve to be thoroughly comforted! I hope you let go of the mommy guilt and get all the caring you need. Best wishes for a speedy recovery!

  10. I’m so sorry about your foot Shelly! Man, that sucks, you have every right to feel sorry for yourself. It sounds like France is full of good Samaritans, and I’m so glad your little Guppy is OK! I’m sending you extra good vibes, get well soon!!

  11. You have every right to be upset and feel bad Shelly! I am so sorry to hear about your accident, how scary! I am very happy to hear that Guppy was alright.

    It has to be really frustrating and there is nothing wrong with feeling that way, especially when they interrupt long standing plans and inconvenience your everyday way of life, and talking about it will (hopefully) make you feel a little better.

    I’m keeping my fingers crossed that nothing is broken and that you will be back in action in no time.

  12. No, you DO NOT need to get over it! You have every right to feel sorry for yourself right now. I know I would definitely feel super sorry for myself if that happened to me! I’m so sorry, my Dear Shellyfish friend. I am wishing you a speedy recovery :o/

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